where do I go from here? how long more can I pretend? the darkness didn’t leave me after all… shattered but holding upnis the worst pain ever.












we often take things (tangible or intangible) and go; or move on to the next goal…cos there is really no time. would it be different if we pause at that moment to think and appreciate that someone, your life, your belief…

lately work has been very demanding to the extent that I am devoid of feelings. I complained and I wished I didn’t have to work or if I can do something I like.

today I saw someone on the road trying to make a living by struggling to make music with his limited means while his elderly mom helped on and thanked me and others who have donated profusely. that moment I was thankful for the everything in my life. why must we see someone’s suffering to be reminded of how minor (including paranoid and imaginary ones) our problems are?

while I am still feeling the blues and weight of life I must be constantly mindful and thankful.

luv, summer 


Leave Me Alone

There are days where you just feel lousy for no reasons, well perhaps there are cumulative or underlying reasons…which has cannot be solved instantly.  That is when you wished people around you to leave you alone, seriously.

luv, summer

Are Mondays Meant to be Blue?

Are every Mondays supposed to be a bag of nerves?
Why is it that i always try to start the day injecting positiveness? But invariably still end up drained and perhaps even wounded…

luv, summer

angel’s smile

the angel smiled upon me today…

can’t believe it! it has been more than a year since i last wrote! what happened?  too too many roller coaster rides up till yesterday! i was hoping for a less exciting 2013. will i?  i hope..

looking forward to cny and a really good rest and spending time by the pool!

for now i am just going to enjoy the pistachio chewy cookies hot from my oven…

luv, summer



Pistachio Cookies

190g pistachios (raw, shelled)

100g almond meal

90g caster sugar

1 to 2 egg whites

Icing sugar (for dusting)

1. Lightly toast the pistachios for 5 minutes* in a preheated oven at 160c. Chop the first 90 grams of pistachio finely and the other 100 grams of pistachios roughly.

2. In a bowl place the finely chopped 90g of pistachios, almond meal, sugar and egg whites. Mix well until a paste is formed.

3. Scoop the cookie batter and form into little balls (if you find the batter too sticky add a bit more almond meal to the paste) then roll them in the remaining 100 grams of pistachios.

4. Place then in a baking sheet, around 2 cm apart and bake for 13 minutes at 170°C (fan forced).

5. Dust with icing sugar when cool.