模糊

我对2016和2017的模糊不知从何开始

就像一段搁在一旁的感情一样模糊

不是不爱而是不知如何处理

不是不痛而是害怕破碎不堪

感情停留越久越模糊

再也捉摸不透那冷淡的模糊

这痛很真原来永远和瞬间一样

Broken 

where do I go from here? how long more can I pretend? the darkness didn’t leave me after all… shattered but holding up is the worst pain ever.

黑与白

我以为我已接受了灰

原来不然

我还有抗拒灰的时候

最遥远的距离

为什么两个相爱的人隔了一段遥远的距离?让我们分别得远很远,突然变成了陌生人。

难道相爱真的这么难?

难道真相真的那么伤,那么难以接受?为什么不去面对它?

我想我能接受不完美的一段情,但不能接受隐藏的感觉。

坚持守护着岗位成了我们最遥远的距离,最心寒的痛。

Thankful

we often take things (tangible or intangible) and go; or move on to the next goal…cos there is really no time. would it be different if we pause at that moment to think and appreciate that someone, your life, your belief…

lately work has been very demanding to the extent that I am devoid of feelings. I complained and I wished I didn’t have to work or if I can do something I like.

today I saw someone on the road trying to make a living by struggling to make music with his limited means while his elderly mom helped on and thanked me and others who have donated profusely. that moment I was thankful for the everything in my life. why must we see someone’s suffering to be reminded of how minor (including paranoid and imaginary ones) our problems are?

while I am still feeling the blues and weight of life I must be constantly mindful and thankful.

luv, summer 

 

Leave Me Alone

There are days where you just feel lousy for no reasons, well perhaps there are cumulative or underlying reasons…which has cannot be solved instantly.  That is when you wished people around you to leave you alone, seriously.

luv, summer